I first thought my impulse to fill the lanai with plants was simply because we have a lanai. Its a big space, why not make it a nice hangout? Well its not a nice hangout, its a space for me to care for plants, the dining table taken over by plants and supplies, Plants and seedlings scattered around somewhat haphazardly according to the light.
Andy hates clutter, so this is not his favorite thing. But I have this drive to care for something, to see something through for the long term, to start something and see it through every day. My entire adult life has been somewhat haphazard, scattered, I have not felt at home anywhere for a long time. I want to put down roots. And so I am.